I had my little girl

Since Thursday. Although, I am enjoying my time... the depression is still very much there.

I still get overwhelmed and shut off and find myself turning away from her coos and laughter. Its especially that way when she cries and I don't want to be that way... my mind just starts to disassociate... especially when others are around. It isn't right... it doesn't make sense and it doesn't at all make me feel good.

Work has been kicking my ass for the few hours that I work a shift. At the same time... I start to stress about her eating and diapers and if she's being paid attention to...