And disgusted by your abhorrent behavior. I feel like everything you stand for is a filthy lie and your selfishness is absolutely incredible. I hear people tell me that I've put you through so much shit... but really, how fucking easy is your life? You go to work, and play video games and draw tits all day... and you work for free. You do nothing with your talents and have no ambitions... meanwhile my life revolves around raising our daughter. I can't believe you can still hurt me... I loved you and your daughter doesn't even know who you are anymore. At this point, I hope she never does. I'd hate for her to know that her father is a deadbeat and abusive asshole.
Its funny. So many men are in love with her and have and would treat her so much better than you ever would and they'd never do the things that you've done to me. One of these days... she will have a dad that loves her and would do anything for her.
I struggle but I can look at myself and say, I'm doing the best I can. I wish you... through even these extreme circumstances would take some initiative. You have no idea how fucking hard it is and I will always hate you for doing this to her... and I will always hate you for being deceitful and that I loved you. I wish I would have left you before she was born. I fucking hate you so much for hurting our family and not fucking trying. I hope we never see you again... and I am disgusted that I wanted to grow old with you and thought you were magic.
I fucking hate you. I want to forget you and for our best interest, please forget us. The only good thing you ever did in this world was Arya.
