Being honest is hard. Especially when you know you were wrong and are terrified to admit it to other parties and your therapists. A slip up or two and the shame associated with regression. That's what these classes are for though. I need to avoid or accept my triggers and move forward and take one day at a time.
Friday, July 11, 2014
Sunday, July 6, 2014
I had my little girl
Since Thursday. Although, I am enjoying my time... the depression is still very much there.
I still get overwhelmed and shut off and find myself turning away from her coos and laughter. Its especially that way when she cries and I don't want to be that way... my mind just starts to disassociate... especially when others are around. It isn't right... it doesn't make sense and it doesn't at all make me feel good.
Work has been kicking my ass for the few hours that I work a shift. At the same time... I start to stress about her eating and diapers and if she's being paid attention to...
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