Such a jerk. I have been standing people up lately because I am just too tired after work. I literally hang out on my bed the entire time I am home.
Friday, thank Gods.
I might go to London for my birthday and visit a friend of mine from Omaha.
Speaking of friends I got a letter from my ex today... it made me feel pretty bad/sad. I don't like people feeling badly because of me. :(
Small babies is bad for me. I feel bad leaving work after 9 hours and handing them over to other staff. I think I get attached too easily. I've been stepping in for the lead there and already the little ones are saying, 'Bree. bree!' And following me around the room. We have a three month old in there that I am getting attached to. I know how to soothe her because she is so particular and when I handed her off, she did the sad lip and screamed... and it made me sad.
I had that phone interview but I couldn't bring myself to call. Do I want to leave Europe yet? The hell?
That instead of lamenting the things I haven't done in my almost 29 years of existance but instead to be proud of the things that I have accomplished. From 22 to 28 I have always followed the road less traveled and gained new insights and perspectives... and? Some lessons were devestating, whereas, others made me who I am today. Maybe I am not as broken as I think I am.
Monday came all too soon. How is that for counting down tomorrows?
I stayed in bed all weekend, my energy levels are draining.
Today I got in trouble for getting angry with my boss. I made up for it, in my own way, I suppose... I told them I would work ten hours every day because they are short staffed.
My brain is still zapping but I am feeling much better.
I got a teaching position offered to me stateside. That's cool, benefits! And my old roomie Todd is trying to convince me to come that way.
'But don't you get tired of running?' He says.
Yes. It is exhausting.
