Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Fluttering fetus.

I'm in my second trimester and my panic attacks have been consistently wearing me out on top of stress and all else.

I have a lot going on but I'm still amazed every day how independent and funny my child is becoming. Best feeling ever? Arya cuddles.

I'm starting to think my HG is being exacerbated by my debilitating panic attacks. It just makes the puking and nausea so much worse. My body is a body that doesn't like being pregnant and more or less not being in control.

I got in contact with my Maitre ' D from Hawaii, who helped me become self aware of my panic attacks. At 23, I didn't know what they were. It was good to thank him after all these years for understanding.

I think I'll always struggle with it but hopefully it staves off soon enough.