The stomach flu

Has been plaguing our center, everybody has had it except me and maybe Justy. I've just been fighting fevers and nausea. Even our maintenance guy has it. I have been feeling pretty ill but I think my refusal to vomit is a very strong will.

work has not been fun. The kids are running fevers and going through the bug. I hold them and they're like little fire dragons under my neck. My little furnaces.

My remedies:
Heisse Zitrone mit Honig
Dramamine

I also have been bleaching the crap out of everything.

You look

Like a lady but don't act like one.

Me: I do... at work! Why would I want to be a lady?

My date was ok

Aside from the fact I was falling asleep between tea and sweets. I thought I was disappointing but he thinks I am amusing and he kept speaking German. We talked about religion and such but its been forever since I studied it.

I went home and crashed hard. Sleepy sleepy.

I am not so much into 'dating' as I feel married to my job. I just feel like social interaction would do me good. Playing video games at home when I am angry or sad is tiresome. I am not interested really into putting my efforts into anything else.

He wants me to come to the gym today and do something afterward. Haha, my body isn't ready for that but we'll see.

I guess I

Have a date tomorrow with one of the German guys I met on Saturday. He's pretty funny although different. He works as a personal trainer at a gym but he plays video games and has a sense of humor at least. We switch between German and English and still manage to be funny.

I bailed out on Chris last night. I didn't feel well. He was going to make me maultaschen. Tonight is Angie's birthday. I am still not feeling well. I have a fever and my throat hurts. Boo.

Brain shivers.

I spent most of the day in a sleep state. Going anywhere aside from my bed was hard. By 9pm, I couldn't take the symptoms anymore. I started cutting up pieces of my antidep pills and then my seroquel and followed it with super snooze melatonin. I woke up several times screaming, catching myself and going back to bed.

I took one adderall this morning. I can not get through work with all this crap going on. No way. I feel like I am in slow motion but I am talking a lot more and faster but my memory is also failing. How much longer, I wonder. I feel like I am in a haze.

My dad had me try this wine yesterday and I immediately threw it up. It was bad, I ran from my room puking and there was purple drops everywhere, I stained the sink. It was called Negro. Does that make me racist?

Cold turkey

No minimumd dosing. No meds at all this weekend. Can't stop sleeping. Shaking hantds, swollen hands and feet.

I can push through it. Eric stopped a few years ago. Said he was tired and cried a lot.