Doula or Don't?

I'm really, really not enjoying being pregnant right now. I made an appointment with a doula for next week on Tuesday evening.

Not only do my boobs ache, and my moods are becoming more and more aggressive and unbearable but I'm exhausted and have been very "all day sick". I feel so useless.

I think on Thursday or Wednesday is the day I had a huge breakdown and I didn't even want to be pregnant anymore. I'm a mess and I don't think I'm strong enough to do this. :(

Oswin and Rob have been great. I just wish there was something I could do for them.